As always, the New Year brings lots of thought and contemplation.
What do I want to change, what can I do to make a difference, how do I improve myself...?
Of course there is the usual, get in shape, lose weight, get organized, read the Bible through again, volunteer at a charity, blah, blah, blah...
What is it about myself, that I want to make changes or start over or get going, only to fail. I always fail. I purpose to do it right this time and once again I fail. I think I put way to many expectations on myself, I cannot do anything on my own.
Yes, a light bulb moment!!! Okay, I will never be able to do anything on my own, I know this. Now comes the hard part, relinquishing control over to God yet again. So, I will start over, I like that, start over each morning. If I let myself start over, then I don't have to feel bad about failing. Each new day will bring victories as well as failures. I can celebrate and I can learn, I can grow.
Hmmmm...I wonder if this is what He had planned all along.